( If you are looking for a read that is sexy, feeds fantasy etc…. This blog entry here, isn’t the one to read)
As some of you know, I have mentioned my 31 yr old daughter having bi polar.
I have empathy but I know other bi polar people who are not “monsters” for lack of a better term. My daughter and her toxicity are things that at least for now I have decided to keep out of my life as I need peace and growth of my own.
I only mention her because some of her comments make me think of things that civvie women and men often say about people who are escorts.
My daughter would love for the world to believe that me being an escort made her life hard.. ( BTW IT IMPORTANT TO NOTE THAT, MY DAUGHTER WAS ALREADY 14 OR ENDING OF 13 WHEN I BEGAN, SHE NEVER WAS AS YOUNG AS HER YOUNGER SIBLINGS WHEN I BEGAN. IF ANYTHING ID EXPECT HER TO BE MORE UPSET ABOUT HER DAD AND HER STEPDAD’S INFLUENCE ON OUR HOME LIVES AND HER LIFE THAN MY OCCUPATION. BUT THAT’S ANOTHER STORY. SHE WAS NEVER EVER ABUSED, I’D BE IN JAIL IF ANY OF MY KIDS WERE ABUSED BECAUSE SOMEONE WOULD HAVE TO DIE.) So trust me her formative years were not marked at all by me becoming a sex worker.
In fact other than having to babysit when I worked, having gone through rough times financially on more than one occasion ( BOTH THINGS THAT HAPPEN OFTEN NO MATTER WHAT YOUR PARENTS OCCUPATION IS BTW) overall things got better.
Let’s see ..
Instead of being gone everyday 16 hours a day working in the medical field…I was home for the most part.
I knew where my kids were, they knew where I was. I could go to parties and events w them and make my own hours to be home.
We could afford to go to concerts,events to have the best Halloweens Every year.
She could come in at any time except for when we were struggling and get money for prom dresses or just a trip to the mall.
Now had I have been a mom struggling after a divorce like most single moms in the civvie world do…she wouldn’t have had those things.
Yes till she was 18 she also had a trust fund. So once a yr well say she was able to buy her own things. BUT make no mistake she was loved and cared for.
If were going to be very honest..my escorting affected my 26 yr old son way more than her because when she left home..he had to really go thru the struggling with me..when we moved to Ga knowing no one and he really had to become the man of the house at 14. So for him I could understand any complaints. She however was really truly in the house having to watch her younger siblings because she was on punishment already 90 percent of the time for her mouth and for not doing her schoolwork. Funny how kids only remember the parts of their childhoods that suit them when they want to play victim
The point is SEXWORK made me a better mom actually and also led me to seeing my greatness and to now running 2 companies of my own.
When I was young I was one of those girls similar to my daughter who due to loneliness slept w more men honestly then than I probably did my first few years of escorting. I’m one of those ladies who’s clients really only 15 percent of them over the years have gone full service w me. They truly connect w me, respect me and it creates a different dynamic for most of my dates. I happen to be proud of that. Although I do not mind my gfe gents long as they also treat me with respect.
I have more respect for how I used my body once I could pay my Bill’s and provide for my children than I will ever ever have for when I was just being stupid and desperate for male attention and sleeping with anyone who found me sexy. Meanwhile I was a food stamp and welfare mom w an education who should have been doing better.
To anyone reading this in the civvie world. The woman sleeping w everyone for free is no better in anyway than the one getting paid. The one getting paid is simply taking some power and control of her situation.
I would NEVER want any of my daughters to need to be sex workers not because its shameful but purely because its dangerous. However I also wouldn’t want my daughters sleeping w everyone or any man for that matter and unable to keep a home or pay their Bill’s or provide for their kids.
All I did was simply stop sleeping around for free and began to profit from something I’d already been doing. It was no secret I was a wild one when I was younger.
So to any family members or friends who may by chance stumble across my blog….
YOU WILL NEVER SHAME ME..THERE IS NO SHAME IN ME.
Thanks for allowing me to clear my head…
Storm aka Char